4:00 a.m. again (3-21-22)
and no sleep
I tried forest sounds
including a stream and an owl.
I tried happy tv
traveling, remodeling
other animals in their habitat.
I tried counting breaths
and soft music.
I tried acupressure
and the mantra
“be here now”
I tried silence
and the static was deafening
Pills aren’t working.
My reoccurring depression
blossoms in a toxic reality.
I tuned into WW3
thinking avoiding it was not working
and that didn’t work either.
Over 3 million refugees
from Ukraine have run for their lives.
My heart races for them
as my body slowly disintegrates
and the world as we know it explodes and burns.
Annihilation a possibility.
Night is too dark
for sleep
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