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"Collector’s Item" by Dani Brokaw




The license plate on the garage wall

once belonged to a farmer named Harold

who suffered from hemorrhoids and didn’t love his wife.

Every morning, early, he drove his truck,

considering the road ahead and the color of the sky,

past the store that had been the Five and Dime and then the Sugar

Bowl Ice Cream Parlor.

She’d ordered a banana split,

looking a thousand miles away as she ate,

and Harold longed to go a thousand miles away with her

but she complained of brain freeze so he took her home,

haunted for the rest of his life

by the possibility that he’d bored her.

Then Marge came along.

Julie of the distant eyes had moved away

and that boat had sailed

anyway.

Every night he slept with Marge

beneath a quilt that made him sweat:

roses and polka-dots,

peonies and pinstripes.

When he tossed it aside, itchy and smothered,

Marge would tenderly cover him again,

and Harold would close his eyes

as she laid him to rest.

Their kids grew up;

Ray ran a tattoo parlor. He married a girl

named Darlene Marge always said wasn’t right in the head.

Tina started drinking after her husband

left her for a woman named

Dawn who wrote bad poetry.

One night serving up pork chops

in the bile green kitchen, Marge said,

remember Julie Warnick?

The mushroom soup was congealing around the chop on the yellow plate

as Harold recalled the swoop of Julie’s pale hair

before she secured it behind her ears

and took up her spoon.

A little, he said.

She died; it was cancer apparently.

He did not taste the pork chops. But then Marge

had prepared this dish each Wednesday night

for forty-three years;

it has been decades since he tasted pork chops.

After he died (heart congestion)

Harold’s pickup sat in the garage for fifteen years.

Marge clung hard to her routine

of church and get-togethers with the girls

and a crochet club started up at the community center,

but then she had a fall

and the routine that glued her minutes and hours and days together

melted away and she remembered

the boredom she’d tried so hard not to see

on Harold’s face

every day of their marriage.

Ray and Tina visited her in the nursing home

and she smiled and nodded at the chocolates and crossword puzzles

but it was so late

and she needed to say the words in her head.

Of course Daddy loved you,

Tina looked out across the parking lot, bored and resentful,

fifty-five and hoping a man named Greg

who collected Meerschaum pipes

would marry her.

When their Mom died Ray and Tina

held an estate sale to get rid of all the household items

accumulated over a span of almost fifty years,

then put the house on the market.

Ray sold his dad’s old pickup.

Years later the license plate ended up in a cardboard box

In the back of an antique store named Years Gone By

that sold collector’s items.

Tina had drunk herself to death by this time

but Ray and Darlene were welcoming grandchild number six.

A man who lived alone

bought the license plate that was once fixed to

Harold’s pickup as he drove to the farm wondering

What would have happened if he’d called her after

the brain freeze incident?

Of course the man who bought the

license plate knew none of this.

He took it home and hung it on his garage wall.

Stepped back.

Carefully straightened it.

It looked really cool.




A word from the author: Collector's Item is a poem about loss, regret, and boredom.


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