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"Off Ramp", "Falling Towards Where We Don't Want To Go Again"... by Christina M. Rau



Off Ramp


This wasn’t the exit I wanted.

This a scattered merge away

from where everyone else is headed.

This one abrupt. This one crept up,

appeared, no sign, unnumbered,

not on the map.


It lingered then. Wouldn’t take.

Kept appearing. Couldn’t shake off

potential of miles ahead. Couldn’t

handle a rest to the side. The deciding

seems choiceless, like a must—all

routes seem to end in collision.


Distracted by a voice and a promise

now insincere. Terms decided on

cruise control to pass by on-ramps

and overpasses but to an advantage.

Now we’re too far gone. There’s

no going back.



Falling Towards Where We Don’t Want To Go Again


I am sad for so many reasons

I cannot name. Lightbulbs

shatter in bad packaging—

too many to choose from

in the aisle. An overwhelming

task—numb in the hardware store.


How many heartbreaks does it take

to screw in a lightbulb?

How many weeks to get

unscrewed.


Candles can’t replace false light.

They cause more body wracking,

offer more to shiver at—

snuffed out. What’s lost in a church pew.

What’s admitted inside a confessional.


At shoreline, foam. On a precipice,

wind. Concave mirrors. Knotted hair.

It’s all too much to have to conjure up

every single time.



We Eat The Dead


One becomes a simple fraction of the other

Names baked up into the bread

War happens every so often

Hunger strikes forts in a cold then

wool coats in summer

Taste each name

up on a green hill

when cloud cover dissipates

Make do with what is in reach at the time

They had graves and stones so they took in

a span of years and a legacy of last words

no longer planted at the head but knocked

down to keep a precious life going a little

bit longer at the least

to outlast the other side

if only by a moment.





Christina M. Rau is the author of What We Do To Make Us Whole, the Elgin Award-winning Liberating The Astronauts, and two poetry chapbooks. She serves as Poet in Residence for Oceanside Library (NY) and was 2020 Walt Whitman Birthplace Poet of the Year. Her poetry occasionally airs on Destinies radio show (WUSB) and appears in various literary journals. When she's not writing, she's teaching yoga or watching the Game Show Network.http://www.christinamrau.com

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