boyfriend diary i
found poem
i’ve been feeling a lot.
i don’t know how
i keep reminding myself
to move, breathe, understand
goodness,
i’m crying again.
i know i’m past your limit.
boyfriend diary ii
found poem
i made mistakes,
& isolated myself.
it’s been difficult,
unearthing, reaching
for deeper understanding
that disconnect is my kryptonite.
mikey, the first time
you pulled away
it hurt.
boyfriend diary iii
found poem
this week has been bitter
-sweet. i’ve been busy
with work,
with friends;
game nights, casinos,
critical role.
i’m learning
how to be my own person,
admitting my mistakes,
acknowledging
the church fucked me over.
but i’m here
letting the darkness
warm me
like embers in the cold.
boyfriend diary iv
found poem
god, i was so scared
to fail that i failed
anyways. i see you,
see the symbols
of our journey,
stars & planets
& i’m in love
with the orbit,
the pull
of gravity. i know
there’s still a lot
to move through
but i trust
in the feeling i got
when you smiled
for the first time
in months.