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"The first time Audrey flies a kite", “Last night”, & "The first time your first child bleeds" by Brian Baker


The first time Audrey flies a kite    

from a tweet by Audrey Burges                               


Across a tract 

of wireless sky 

she and her son have

lofted it together.


It’s like walking a dog

who flies!


he says,

offering up this 

brilliant, seedling truth

there along the shifting edge

of land and sea.


In its jig of

freedom and restraint

the kite throws itself against

the concave clouds.


She grasps 

its cord, feels it tug against her,

can almost hear it, crying


free me, set me loose,

let’s find out

how much farther we can

be apart from each other


She holds tight,

the sun comes down to earth

and is polarized,

the blowing sand drifts around 

plastic pails and lifeguard stands,

flies out over the ocean.


Face framed between her hair’s wind-whipped strands,

Audrey looks high up into the lenticular sky


and she is as unprepared

as we all were


for the joy. 



Last night                                                                              


when she fell asleep

she lay there with her thumb traced


up against the line of 

my jaw with her fingers


resting across my throat,

like they would on a trumpet’s valves,


rising and falling with my

every swallow and breath.


And then the hooded cat

is there, throaty, insistent,


pawing at my hip

until I reach across to take her


head in my palm, cup her ears,

mold my fist almost


all the way around her neck, 

so that then we were three of us, grappling


there in the slender light.



The first time your first child bleeds                                        


End of the day,


and the thin strip of hallway light 

has fallen across his closed lids. 


Underneath them, though, the restlessness 

in his eyes has become mine,

remembering again


that he bled today.


Blood,

thin, trickling line

of it,

from the lip,

thought I was so

familiar with his 

each and every small trauma,

everything I’d prepared myself for,


but not this.


Bled,

and I was partner

in something that

could actually bleed.


Bled,

and the flow was

like my own,

that I had to stem,

bleeding from across

the room, I

have never bled this way

before.




Brian Baker (he/him) is a London, Ontario poet who began writing back in the late eighties, publishing in such literary print journals as The Lyric, Canadian Author & Bookman, the University of Windsor Review, Dandelion, and The Antigonish Review. Now, in his first re-imagining, he is back to writing, with work published or forthcoming in such online and print journals as Cathexis Northwest Press, Synaeresis, Sledgehammer Lit,  High Shelf Press, Roi Fainéant Press, Vast Chasm Magazine, and Stanchion Zine. As well, he is a two-time winner of the Antler River Poetry (fka Poetry London) Contest.

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