Tried and true fashions never seem to be in
not on catwalks or clothed mannequins
a juice cleanse and diet pill racket
spamming your inbox and cluttering your mind
keeping their eyes on your obvious faults
imploring you to snap “before and after” pictures
so you can linger on results
we hire therapists and life coaches
for stress management
finding the obvious irony in feeling small
and having to see a shrink
I thought to myself…
“I enjoy laying on the couch at home,
so why not lay upon a strangers
fragmenting words from a mind so clutteres
It's usually just devoid of motivation
or resting in the gutter”
Mutter these fragments in bold italic shards
soft spoken, feeling hard to say
got a sadness circa 1990-something
never confronted
“I feel about this tall, doc
and I just can't seem to keep this weight off”
He recommends a dietician
and some cardiovascular hogwash
but I am speaking of the weight upon my shoulders
and the burdens I bear
picking my poisons like ripened fruit
then binging until my shirt starts to swell,
Hey, fruit is healthy, right?
“A bowl of Apple Jacks a day
keeps my therapist paid.”
...I think this to myself and I smirk.
Everything he says feels sugar coated
processed is this food for thought
an overweight man feeling lesser than
paying someone else’s mortgage
with my deep down agony
“Ope, that’s all time we have for this session
we’ll revisit this next week
until then just do those exercises for your grief
watch what you eat, and take a handful of these”
I’m left wishing my body could be
half as small as these appointments
make me feel
oh, the irony in feeling small
and seeing a shrink
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