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"The Period from November Until January", "On Beginning to Feel It" &...by Brendan Constantine



The period from November until January

poem for Maria Berry

is deer season.

which means. it’s time.

to dress up. as buildings

and hide behind each other.

time to cover. the lake.

with sheet music. and then.

watch it soak through.

become itself again. but.

with Shubert at the bottom.

I like to say. the word. Year.

over and faster until. I sound

like an engine. like a spinning

wilderness. the deer are.

everywhere just now.

at the window. in our clothes.

drinking from the poems. of men

in their fifties. the trick.

is to be. quieter.

than the letter F.

to be still. as a calendar

if you have. food. you should eat it.

if you have. a gun. you should.

load it with candy. leave it.

in the grass. the ants will

thank you. in their copious.

halls. in their antlore.

we are all houses for someone.

Schubert believed. everyone.

lived inside Beethoven. he

was half right. half of us.

only come out at night.

only drink. from our own.

cupped hands. the other.

half. are invisible. against

the trees.


On Beginning to Feel It

You don’t know you’re drunk

until you miss something; a beat,

a word, a face. Today my computer

wants proof I’m not a robot.

The ground falls away just a little

with each step. Or you sit down

too quickly. I’m trying to remember

the name of my first pet. I know

a man who plays blues records

backwards to make his lover come

home. Only a kind of innocence

has returned. And an old milk cow.

It’s a good idea to mark your cup

with a pen, a bent straw, maybe

a flower from the table. That way

there’s no confusion, no red house

over yonder. What secret question

could you possibly ask yourself

to fool an imposter? To be bathed

in light is half the universe. I once

loved a poet who refused to leave

the house. It got so bad, I began

to write, too. Dark is the night, cold

is every pixel of the night. Drink ‘til

you can’t tell you’re drinking, sing

the chorus early. My dog’s first name

was Doctor. That’s all I can bare

to say.


To Whom It May Disturb

All these envelopes on the table, each

with another one inside, we could

use them to send love poems instead

of money, how easy it would be. Dear

Telephone Co., You are a field of blue

flowers waving down the night and I

am full of stars. Dear Water & Power,

My heart is your lightning farm,

kiss me. Dear California Gas, Do you

think of me when the forest burns,

because I think of you and touch

my cold stove. If we were steadfast,

surely someone would answer in kind.

They might even come to our door,

a lonely clerk or bookkeeper, whoever

reads the mail, standing on the porch

with flowers or a suitcase. We could

watch from upstairs and cry and cry.



A note from the author:

I’m a poet based in Los Angeles. In addition to teaching a local high school, I’ve spent the last five years working with speech pathologists to develop poetry classes for people with Aphasia and Traumatic Brain Injuries (TBI).

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